A little (or a lot lol) of emotions going on right now; I feel hella bad, I I've spent the past few…

A little (or a lot lol) of emotions going on right now; I feel hella bad, I I've spent the past few nights crying myself to sleep or waking up crying over some things going on in my life and the lack of support I have seeing as my child's father and I are no longer together and he's doing his own thing and has already moved on (somewhat) to another person (although he literally wanted to have sex and told me he wanted me back for the past 2 days), and my mom and I are completely different when it comes to dealing with stress so she's not helping much and seeing as I constantly bottle up my feelings some nights get hard for me and I spend them alone crying over how overwhelmed I tend to feel and every time I cry babygirl kicks me almost as if she's saying "cheer up mommy, I love you so much and appreciate you and can't wait to meet you, we're okay and we'll be okay" and feeling her little kicks which I love so much makes me cry even more because I wish she was going to be born with he dad and my relationship being different and although things aren't terrible in terms of living situation or financial support, I just wish some stuff was different and she would have both myself and her father in the way I had both parents growing up, part of me feels like me not being able to give her her dad and show her a good romantic relationship (with him) in a sense makes me a failure in some way when I know I've gone above and beyond for this "man" and get repaid by being told he can't do this anymore but he'll be there for me regardless and that we're going to be okay and get back together eventually, but he likes someone else and has girls looking at me like I'm crazy in public when I have no idea who they are all because he wants to have his cake and eat it too, and he makes constant advances at me, but he's talking to other girls and posting them all over social media and going on dates with them when he and I haven't been out in public together in a while and I've pretty much been treated like some secret that's only good enough behind closed doors lately. Smh I'm just tired of it and my only focus is my baby girl who I pray never goes through this, and myself, I just wish we had more in our corner than just each other because that's literally all we have right now.