Having a newborn is hard, but having older kids a husband and a newborn is harder!!! I'm so overwhelmed it's our first night home our kids are staying with family so it's just us and our baby. I know it's not going to be easy and that we'll get into a routine and learn to make things work as a new family of 5. I can't get my husband to understand that the baby picks up on his vibes, she's crying and he's holding her bouncing like a fool! I'm trying to tell him relax and all I get is yelled at! and then it's my fault like really. I don't have enough to deal with. my 2 older kids are ALREADY feeling left out cause I'm trying to catch up on much needed sleep, so I feel like a shitty mom to began with and now this fool who I should be able to depend on for any and everything. I feel like I've got the weight of the world on my shoulders and no end in sight.