So threw up the brew but still having some contractions. I suppose it will help dilation.

Sigh so I guess my appointment for Friday to get monitoring is still on .

I hope my fluids stay consistent.

UGH!!! I'm so jealous of the girls that already start to leak I'm 36+3 & still NOTHING i know it can happen after birth but I get so damn worried that I won't produce any milk for my twins ... :'( what if i don't a few days after labor .. I'm screw I dnt want to formula feed my baby I'm not against it but breastfeeding is way better :'(

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I don't think she gets it.

I swear sometimes I just need to renew my policy to not look at the comments in Facebook. I never used to. I don't know why I started. But the ignorance is real.

so anxious

going to TTC again for the first time this month after a mmc in November and d&c in December. that was my first pregnancy so I'm TERRIFIED I won't get pregnant again or get a sticky bean! We have a really good feeling about it but I don't want to get my hopes up :/. my fertile week starts Sunday and I would give anything to get my rainbow baby! let's hope I get pregnant and it sticks!