Took a little break from mom life for a couple weeks.. Too stressed. Too depressed. I was scrolling through Facebook the other day and in 10 minutes I scrolled past 5 friends announcing they were pregnant... It's getting really hard to keep my eyes on the prize right now and keep being motivated when I really just want to lay down and cry. It sucks even worse when you see someone that you know and know well, announce that they're pregnant and deep down inside you know how much they don't deserve it. How they hate kids and always said they'd abort. If only I was able to know what it was like to carry a child full term. To have a little half of me and half of the man I love running around. At this point it just seems like an unrealistic idea to hope and pray for at this point. I'm sorry for being so depressing but at this point I don't know what to do.