I just feel so gross. After I had Dylan I completely let myself go and it's hard to get back on…

I just feel so gross. After I had Dylan I completely let myself go and it's hard to get back on track with a healthier lifestyle especially when unhealthy food is more convenient and more affordable. I just wanna wake up one day, look in the mirror and like what I see. It's so hard. I keep telling myself I'm gonna try my best but it ends up not working out. God help me.