So I cried tonight for the first time since my baby has been born six months ago. We have been trying to transition from Co sleeping to sleeping in the bassinet, but tonight as I came to the rescue of my crying baby I realised something.
She is crying for my comfort.
She is crying for the skin she can't seem to find while reaching around frantically in the dark.
She is crying because she is not independent.
She is crying because she needs me....
My baby is growing every single day and right now she is still my precious little baby that I am not ready to sleep in my big girl bed without. One more night may turn into two more nights or even a month worth of nights. But I want one more night to cuddle my baby and be right next to her as she stirs in the middle of the night looking for skin to cling to for comfort. Sure some moms may have the crib training down to a T. But I'm not ashamed to say I'm not ready. Becoming a mommy has been the scariest thing I have ever done, but at the same time an amazing journey that makes me love my life and it has changed in the most amazing ways. I have found myself in the eyes of my child as she smiles at me when I look at her. Days may be long and some times I may feel like I'm doing everything wrong, but when I wake up in the middle of the night to my baby getting as close as she possibly can to me I know I am doing everything right for her...even if I don't see it some times. So I am going to continue to Co sleep my sleeping princess till I'm ready to let her sleep in her own bed. There is the fear she may never leave my bed till she is a toddler but now I understand why some moms don't start right away. So other moms who are reading this don't feel pressured into getting your baby out of bed when you see other moms having success with crib training. They are ready to have their baby in another bed but if you're not ready yet... take your time. Enjoy your precious little baby pressed against your skin as you fall asleep even if they take up half the bed. It's OK to not be ready.
