😩 I'm so over this heartburn and acid reflux can't sleep at all then my so wanna b all on my side and then the dog laying on me I'm just not a happy person right now 😡 just wanna sleep at this point maybe I'll get to when he goes to work

My sweet baby girl gained her angel wings this morning. She was my best friend, my true love my everything. She was so happy and beautiful, I'm struggling to say good bye. Sleep tight princess, mummy and daddy love you very very much ❤️
So I just found out that my husband is sleeping with my sister and they are making fun of me.
This is too hard.....
The lost of my Ellie.
Being kicked out of my exes
Being a single mom to 2 kids
No job
No car
Soon to be homeless
Nobody to help me
Mental and physical health issues
I'm just ready to end it all. The pain is too much. I'm starting to have panic attacks everyday. Especially when my kids are sleeping or more so when I'm by myself.
Omg I need to vent something weird just happened.... I'm scared because I thought it would never happen. I was in a deep sleep dreaming about ice cream and then all of a sudden I'm feeling wet spots on my neck thinking my fiancé's cat was in the room so I brushed it off. What scared me was then I felt something between my legs not bothered by it. Then all of a sudden I wake up to a twinge in my vagina only to see my fiancé is fucking me in my sleep I wake and was like scared. So I don't say noth...
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
It don't matter what I eat 😩 i still get it