Either I'm getting depressed or just in my feelings but I wish people stop saying everything is my fault. Colic, yellow jaundice, constipation, thrush and what ever else is going on. I didn't cause it upon my baby. I stopped nursing him but doesn't seems to be good enough. I was in love with breastfeeding my baby. It was our bonding time. But I was made to feel like shit about it. Then his yellow jaundice levels kept going up the more I nursed. Now it's I'm lazy, I don't do this I don't do that, I gave him colic. I did this I did that. I can't win for losing. I felt like running away today. Didn't know where me and my baby was going but we were going to be going.