I cant stop thinking about how last week when anthony spent the night at Ryan's, he looked at my belly when i went to pick him up and said, dang, I leave for one night and you got so much bigger, what did I miss? He kept smiling at me and winking at me. He was showing me so much affection. Where did it go? I feel like he's missing so much, ellie improves day by day, & gets bigger day by day.