Oh my goodness! Motherhood is hard. Me and the baby were discharged on yesterday. I had a cesarean so I'm still moving kinda slow. Last night was the first time that I was with him at every moment. I got no sleep. I changed a thousand diapers and pumped a million times plus fed him formula because he's impatient. One minute he was hot and screaming the next he was cold and screaming. Then there were the times he was fed and clean but screaming and I had no idea as to what to do so I cried. I prayed and cried some more. I doubted that I could do this. I thought I wasn't cut out for this but in those moments he'd open his eyes and look at me and for him I knew I could and I would do anything to ensure his wellbeing. The amount of love I have for him has no boundaries. I may be tired but I'm blessed beyond measure.