I have had the same arms wrapped around me for 5 years, I miss those arms so much. the same kisses, that im forgetting how they feel. the same smell, thats no longer on his clothes anymore. the same side of the bed, that has been so cold for so long. the same heart, thats getting so worn out.
the same voice, telling me he loved me every night, I dont even know what he sounds like anymore. I miss my love, even if he does not miss me.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I just want his arms wrapped around me one last time and hear words come out of his mouth that arent true "I love you".. I miss him so bad. My first love! My first relationship! He was many of my first and I know today isnt even the hardest day yet.. I literally hate that I love him so much.

tattoo mommies let me see your sweet tattoos this is my right arm its a rose vine going around my arm and on my forearm i have two owls in love connected to it .
on my left side of my belly I have a dragon ;)
First real case of Discrimination today. 😯
General Contractor kept asking where my SO when I was pulling off the job. Even said ‘How come he doesn’t come here and talk to me like a man’. Wow. I ended up calling the police because felt threatened in how defensive he was talking. Sheesh.
I talked to a friend in the industry and told him everything that happen and he cut me off yelling ‘THATS DISCRIMINATION!’
Do I let it go? Or take him to court?
I am so stressed right now!!!
My OB doesn’t want to take me anymore because I am too “high risk” so I got a new one they don’t want to see me either. They referred me to a group one hour way from my house. But there is only one high risk dr and he doesn’t know if he could see me.
I feel like I should not see any at this point.