Me and my dad don't speak, every year for the past 5 years we've fought and had hardships and rough…

Me and my dad don't speak, every year for the past 5 years we've fought and had hardships and rough times, I've always apologized for things that weren't my fault just to have him in my life, and this past time when I was pregnant and we fought I told myself I wouldn't put myself or my children in that situation until things were better. But today is making me miss him a whole bunch and I miss how he used to be my best friend.. But I did tell him happy Father's Day and that I love him, because despite all the issues wrong with us, I'll always be a daddy's girl at heart.. 💔