Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

TMI Moment: I have yeast infections after all antibiotics they put me on. An it's getting very irritating. My next appointment not till 9/5 and I don't have ride to hospital. Any suggests ?

Last 4 week appointment is June 9th than I'll be going every 2 weeks I'll be like 35 weeks for my first 2 week check up. Wish I could have started the 2 week check up today 😩😩 June 9th is SOOO far away... 😭

Anyone have any luck with getting a membrane sweep done? I am going to ask for one next week at my 38 week appointment (that's the first week they'll start to do it) also, hoping it may slowly work before getting induced the following week due to gestational diabetes. Thanks!

At my 38 week Appointment!!!

Gonna have an ultrasound and check if baby turned. Fingers crossed!! But I have a feeling she's still breech. Might be scheduling a c section for next week!! Ahhh!!!