I am 99% sure he is buying pills again. I tried to open up to him today and he basically told me to…

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but I know the second he leaves, ill just want him back. and im always the first one to text him or call him cause he dont care about me. im not strong enough to leave. I never have been and thats my problem. @sparklymama

you have to want to be strong enough... when the pain of the change (removing him) is less than staying the same (keeping him) you'll decide to go... this is about your self worth... what are you worth? 💝

I accepted 5 years ago when I tried hard core drugs that my self worth was none. I brought myself down to that level, & never got back up. Im not confident, im not strong. I never will be. @sparklymama

I'm sad to hear that you've accepted this as your truth... you have a choice... I'm 99%sure you would tell your child they could be anything they wanted to be... choose for yourself to be confident and strong... it takes baby steps and sometimes you fake it until you make it

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My father always told me that as a child, and thats why I downgraded and accepted myself as nothing. I faked being happy with anthony. Although, he really did used to make me happy. But for the past 3 years he hasnt. I will tell me baby girl that she can be anything that she wants. I just dont have it in me anymore. @sparklymama

you do in life you choose to live or you choose to die... the outcome will be the same for us all but you get to choose the quality of your life... never ever give someone or some traumatic experience the win... get up brush yourself off and square off

i didnt blame it on anyone. @sparklymama

not saying you did just saying to give more to yourself

I feel like its so much easier said than done, to leave. @sparklymama

it is hard it took me a little over 4 years to leave my ex husband best thing I ever did in life hands down