Been nauseous for over a week at this point. Boobs are killing me! Back pains and insomnia to the extreme!! Along with the occasional mood swing so that my husband thinks I'm completely insane for crying for no reason🙃 only 3 days till I can test and really considering just taking one anyway. Terrified of result possibilities though, I can't go through another miscarriage this soon🙁

I will be 41 :/
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Things I never thought I'd say...
Until I became a mom:
Thank you! That honestly means so much after everything I've been through lately it's hard to stay hopeful and keep positive thoughts!☺️