Ugh. I want to be told tomorrow morning I am dilated. I just want some hope that my son is almost…

Ugh. I want to be told tomorrow morning I am dilated. I just want some hope that my son is almost ready to be born. I mean come on I am 3 days shy of 39 weeks. I just want this to start all ready. I would love for him to come on his own but I dont want to wait forever. I know if hes not here by the 21st I have been scheduled for the 23rd to be induced. I also have the option to cancel it if I feel like it but I dont think I will.