Here is the national suicide prevention lifeline 800-272-8255. Please call. There is help available to help you through this and it will get better.

Also I am going to plead with you to wait it out. life changes SO much after you are 18...you meet new people and learn new things and life has a curious way of totally rearranging itself every so often. I hope you give yourself and your son that chance to see it together! besides, you haven't seen that first perfect smile when he knows it is you! 😊

Yes call a hotline ASAP as in now. Also schedule a postpartum check up with your Dr and say you just had your baby recently and are feeling depressed and have thought about suicide.

call suicide hotline PLEASE.