Not gunna lie. I was in love with my sons father. Wanted everything with him and gave him everything but after we found out we were pregnant it went down hill and he no longer wanted me. Now I fight for him to see his son cuz he's to busy running around with a girl. And the father of my second baby loves my son but the only reason he and I were ever together is because my sons father made me feel like I had to be with this other dude. So to make him happy I did so and got pregnant. I love my two children to death but now it's the fact that I see my sons father and remember the past but feel nothing due to all the pain and hurt I went through then I look at the father of my second child who loves my son and still feel nothing. Tonight I even went to his house did his dishes and gave his kitten a bath and let him sleep. No thank you. He just asked why I did it then tried to get sex out of me which isn't happening. After that we sat in silence. I'm not sure if in pushing him away due because of what my sons father did or if that's the reason I feel nothing towards anyone but if really like to figure it out soon. Gah