I hate asking for help but I seriously think I need it . yes I love my son and I love being his…

I hate asking for help but I seriously think I need it . yes I love my son and I love being his mother but it's times like this I want to pack all of his stuff up and drop him off to his dad's . its not fair that I have him 24/7 and the few minutes his dad does spend with him my son always goes into this crying fit and screams for Dada when he leaves . I didn't choose to be a single mother so why am I the one suffering ? its not fair that his dad can go out and enjoy his life and pick and choose when he wants to see his son and I'm always the one left to pick up the pieces . I swear I'm about to save up and disappear with my child . I think that if my son doesn't see his dad it might make things alot easier for me