Even though I'm stuck at home 90% of the time, I still find myself wanting to look decent. I still shower daily,…
Even though I'm stuck at home 90% of the time, I still find myself wanting to look decent. I still shower daily, sometimes twice if I had especially bad night sweats. I still put make up on every once in a while and I wash my hair every 3 days or so. I find myself shaving my legs constantly and spending extra time oiling my skin. I feel depression sort of creeping up. I thought I'd feel it right away after baby was born but it's like a slow infection. The birth didn't go my way in the slightest, everything that could go wrong, did. I failed at breastfeeding and I'm really close to giving up on pumping because it's so much work. Maybe I have PTSD. Maybe hormones are dropping. I don't know... I just want to feel normal. I want a clean house but it feels damn bear impossible. Sleep deprivation obviously isn't helping.
anna·
Мама троих детей
I felt this when I couldn't get my son to latch I felt like such a failure it will get better pumping is so exhausting so don't feel discourage your truly doing a amazing job and should be proud what you have gave your son! My last 2 sons were formula fed they are healthy happy boys! I'm as well a bit sad because I've made my mind up this will be my last month pumping but if you need someone to talk to and feeling really down ask for a Lactation nurse they are truly a blessing!
jana.bear·
Мама сына-младенца
@ab, both my husband and I and all our siblings were formula fed and everybody is strong healthy adults. I got my heart set on things happening a certain way yah know? And literally nothing has gone my way except how beautiful and healthy my Bear is so that should be all that matter. But emotions get carried away I guess.
anna·
Мама троих детей
That's how I felt with my second son nothing went my way and I remember just crying so much I couldn't even breastfed my second son at all. And exactly what you said as long as little man healthy and happy. My husband and I and all my brothers and sisters were formula fed as well we are all healthy its normal to be emotion though we want to give what's best for our babies and the hormones don't help it gets better each day! Whatever you choose to do your doing great just remember that! Hang in there hon!
Autumn·
I'm proud of you for keeping up with the small wins like showering... you have endured more than most could with grace and compassion... sending loving energy your way and please if you continue to feel depression creeping in talk to your doc... you have a beautiful soul that deserves to feel great and shine 💪😘
jana.bear·
Мама сына-младенца
@sparklymama, thank you! Showering makes me feel in control. My husband is very supportive of my need to shower. It's a victory everyday.
jana.bear·
Мама сына-младенца
@ab, damn hormones. Sigh....