I've probably have had the worst day of my life. dealing with your father the past 2 weeks have torn me apart, broken me…

I've probably have had the worst day of my life. dealing with your father the past 2 weeks have torn me apart, broken me down, made me feel unwanted and made my suicide thoughts come back.. but overall the way you look at me everyday gets me by. you are my savior from the bad in myself. you are my motivation to get through the day without crying my eyes out. my motivation to start back at work even when I can't. my motivation to give you the best life a mother could give since your dad wont.. you are my everything and because of you I am still here on earth where I belong with the love of my life. YOU. you will never completely understand everything but I am thankful I had you, thankful your dad gave me you as my mother's day gift, thankful you are my heart and soul. I love You baby boy. even if me and your dad aren't together mommy will always be here for you no matter what bullshit happens.