I have so much build up anger inside me, it's not healthy for me or my baby...I just feel so alone…

I have so much build up anger inside me, it's not healthy for me or my baby...I just feel so alone sometimes...I'm a very nice person so much that ppl just walk over me and treat me like shit...

and I can't treat ppl how they treat me I tend to over do it and go the extreme. then I feel bad...like I just probably pushed my child's father away because I react like I don't need no one. ..but that's because I'm tired of ppl taking advantage of me that I take it out on anybody that's near me....now he won't talk to me, because I blew up over a red light ticket he got in my car...but I told him when he ran the light that he had to pay for it, but he made me so mad that he tried to deny it and I was in the car when the camera flashed....I took it a little to far, my hormones are off the charts, I'm so mean to ppl right now and I can't help it....I told him sorry but he still mad and called me bi-tri polar.