So a bit sad....before I got pregnant again with my son I started to finally lose weight because I took my implant out. I was down to around 155 again and just a few days ago at my ob appointment they said I was up to 180! Before I had kids at all I was only 125 and my highest was 130. I'm sad because I have never been this big and I don't know if I will lose this weight again and back down to at the least 140. I know it's mostly my son and it's all for a good cause but it still makes me sad since everyone my whole life has always called me "gorda" even when I wasn't just because my sisters where smaller than me...even now my fil calls me hi :(even before I was pregnant) and it hurts. I tell everyone don't say that to me I don't like it or it hurts my feelings and all they do is "Ohh I'm just joking around with you" or "stop it I'm just playing" or just shrug it off. My self immege has always been on the low/bad side and I cant help but get sad or feel bad that I'm so big now and might not be ble to get back down.
I completely understand where you are coming from. I was 112 before my daughter and gained 60 pounds with her. My Mexican family always made comments like, "oh you're finally getting a body" rude things like that. I only lost 20 pounds after her and got pregnant again. Now whenever I see them they tell me, "wow this kid is making me so fat" they don't see how hurtful it is. If I say something that they just come up with ,"wow you're so sensitive or damn you're hormonal" which makes it worst. Anyways girl I am at 190 pounds, have no clothes so I currently wear my husband's 😒 my feet hurt from the weight and I am super tired but I promised myself I would lose it after this baby. Keep your head up and hopefully you can go back to your healthy self soon.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
**trigger*** update in post. Kinda
Just talk to me and help me keep my mind off things. Sorry for the crappy hour. I just was woke up by dd for a bottle. No big. Went to the potty before going back to bed and I'm spitting. Bright red. I'm so strung out right now. I lost 3 LO before my son and i don't know if I could handle this again. I'm not cramping yet or anything, but I'm so scared. It's not even 3 and I can't sleep anymore. I sent DH to get ready for work, because until I can call my doc o...
Ok so me and OH just had sex, then I got in the shower after immense pain down below then I'm not sure if my waters gushed out or if I just wee'd myself again😂🙈

Wow! I'm glad that I did test again today! I don't think I even ovulated still? 🤔😫
I'm so confused lol it's cd19 for me
@mommabeardurso, exactly. And right now it's mostly my mother...like I tell her I can't do something because it either hurts or isnt good for me anyways and she's all like I did all this plus more and I had three kids. I hate it when she for that because I'm like that was you and not me...every pregnancy is different. I have to wear my husbands clothes too...the few things I do own that for that are comfortable my mom will point out the moment I walk out 9th that don't go together or match why don't you wear something else. She keeps telling me I need to walk more walk more..I went to l&d they don't me not to walk so much since I'm already hurting and just now she made me feel bad because I wouldn't take my daughter to the park and go for a walk with her. Now I'm laying in my bed with my a.c. on blast because I'm so tired and hot and my feet ankles and hands are swollen. Plus i fell like imma get sick from over doing it and she's just like get over it it's good for you and her shut up or 9th be quiet get over it. My husband knows I stuggle with my weight so we are going to start working out an getting to a good place together that way I have good support.