Rant.

Down as hell today. SO is at work so I'm sitting around the house nervous about this c-section tomorrow. He took the rest of the week off but I'll be in the hospital pretty much the whole week. Then this weekend we get one of his kids. Then he goes back to work and has to work both jobs every other day.

So basically there's no rest time for us to get settled alone then the first week home with the baby, he'll be at work. I don't want to be dependent on him but I wish he would still be there for me to lean on for the first week home. I'm terrified.