So its comfortable for me to have sex in the shower leaning against the wall doggy style. It doesnt…

So its comfortable for me to have sex in the shower leaning against the wall doggy style. It doesnt hurt. it helps me and I actually enjoy it, but unless we do it my husbands way, with me on the bed in awkward positions feeling like Im getting jabbed each time he thrust with pain, and discomfort, we cant have sex. He never wants to help me with my back when it hurts so bad I want to cry, he doesnt help with house hold chores, he complains if there is a mess, or laundry isnt done. Im the only one that cooks. For fucks sake Im bareing him a son that he was told he shouldnt even be able to have, and it was unplanned, but Im taking responsibility at 21, the least he can do is fucking help me with my lower back for 5 fucking minutes before bed, or something.. I give up. I dont want to be a mother if its just going to get me ignored, and treated like a maid.. It was different before I got pregnant. The child doesnt deserve this, me feeling like this, but I cant help it! Im so depressed and he cant understand. I just feel stupid..