Starting TWW. Anyone else?

I had a stillborn daughter at 38 weeks this passed Nov. This is my second month ttc. (Last month we only tried for like two weeks though). My last and only pregnancy, I got pregnant the first month of ttc so I hope it's quick this time again.

🍼💙->BIRTH STORY <-💙🍼

7/19/18 woke u with severe contractions.. went to the er & got sent home..7/20/18 Again had mayor contractions (they never went away) went back to l&d but my cervix was not making any changes.. got sent home!!!

& omg my body was so tired from contracting n not sleeping (it was horrible)..same thing barely no sleep!

In pain all day n night 🙅🏼‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤷🏼‍♀️🙎🏼‍♀️💆‍♀️

7/21/18 had enough went back to l&d same story no changes drink water 💦

(Blah blah blah) lol got sent home (again in tears). Around...

Started smoking 🚬 again and i know it's bad but by god I literally felt like ripping my skin 😱 off it got so bad

Back from the hospital after falling down and hitting my head. Glad to be home again I missed my family so much❤️

I start labor again as soon as I got home. Barely made it the couple minutes it takes to get back to hospital. Savannah was born about an hour ago. I'm holding her next to my heart until she passes away . I'm crushed right now