I have a hard time not comparing my baby to others. but I know every baby grows at their own pace

I think I might have a baby carrier buying addiction ????
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I think i want another baby
I think this will be my LAST baby. My boyfriend is up there in age 🤷🏽♀️
I have a hard time too, but it's mostly because my baby is a preemie so he's behind for his age. 👎🏼