An anxious mess already today!!! Aubrie is at that age where main stream America thinks time for me to leave her and go to work😫😫 I may not be going to the actual job today but I have an interview and I'll be away for 6 hours! That's the longest since she has been born I'll be away. This work situation has been a mess since I got pregnant. A ton of treating a woman like she is crap just cause I'm a woman in a mans job (world)! But back to leaving my baby, OMG I can't even handle it I was even a big jerk to my SO last night freaking about it which I feel awful but this is really hard!! Pumping this morning I got 5 ounces and I cried entire time. HOW DO WE DO THIS!! I want to live in that country where they pay you a year of maternity leave!!