Successfully made it through my first week alone with both boys. I wasn't completely alone as my parents did help a lot but my boyfriend went back to work so its not the same as having him here to help with them. I've been peed and pooped on more times than I can count, haven't showered much because when I did get the chance I just didn't have the energy, didn't bother to get ready at all. Most days I just stayed in my pajamas , hair a mess, and I have cried many times as well. But I made it. I am working my hardest to try and figure out how to balance two kids, a newborn that needs to be cuddled, held constantly at times and sometimes wants to nurse every hour or every 30 minutes and a 20 month old who doesn't understand what a "brother" is or how to be gentle around him. This has been the most exhausting, overwhelming, and truly amazing week of my life. I am blessed to have two handsome and healthy boys. I love being home with them for the time being. I am hopeful that next week will be a little easier or go a little more smoothly. I know in time I will figure out how to be a mom to two boys 💕💕