Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

My MIL hasn't been here at all my whole pregnancy, but now that I'm close to giving birth she wants to demand to be there. Yeah right. I think I'm asking pretty freaking nice to respect my decision. I'm in my right, aren't I?

I'm 6 weeks 1 day today, and I have zero pregnancy symptoms!!no nausea, no vomiting, no bloating, no frequent urination, no sore breasts (in the slightest), no fatigue !! I feel 100 percent not pregnant at all!! This is crazy, shortly after getting a positive my last pregnancy, I had it all... and was put on progesterone and that seemed to increase the intensity of my pregnancy symptoms. Well, I'm on progesterone this pregnancy already too. Have been for a week now and still nothing ! Is this no...

I'm looking through my photos and I found one of my SO and I. I'm now thinking about how obsessed with him I am. I wanna see you and your man! Go! 😊