**Small rant** Sometimes I struggle with the fact that I had to have a c-section... Today at my cousins baby shower I overheard her talking about how she was determined to have her baby naturally, I wanted to tell her to expect the unexpected so she could be prepared for the what ifs just in case but I knew she wouldn't have wanted to hear it, she has no idea what to expect at all when it comes time and she just seems so ignorant to the fact that her whole life is about to change... but anyway, it just made me think about how much I wanted to have my son naturally and how I was determined to have a water birth and how that whole plan got completely messed up... I know there is nothing at all wrong with c-sections and in my situation it was the only option although I did have a choice... my doctor said it was a better idea but he also said I could try to push if I wanted to but if it didn't work I would end up having a c-section anyway... with all the discomfort I was in even with an epidural and how after 36 hours I was still not entirely dilated, I was at a 9.5 but my son's head was just too big and he had it crooked... it seemed like my only option was a c-section... but I still feel like I could have done better or tried harder although it would have been very difficult... I just wish I could shake this guilt I feel, I have no reason to feel that way.
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@sexxymama83, @vb95, Thanks ladies :) The doctor said he wouldn't have come out without causing an internal tear and a lot of pain unless he somehow managed to straighten his head out... so I know I didn't really have a choice.
I feel the same way....... Just try to focus on your son being here. That's what I do. But I still have some 'guilt' about my delivery.
Don't beat yourself up, you're right she has no idea, and you do have to expect the unexpected. I never once thought I would have to have an emergency c section. I wanted to deliver naturally too, but the c section was my only option. It's hard but at least our babies are here, and they're healthy!
That's what happened with my first, she got stuck and went into distress, had to do an emergency csection. I cried forever about it, but at the end of the day, my baby girl is healthy and happy (6 years old now) and I know it was the right thing to do. My second came naturally and hopefully this baby will too. Hugs.