I went to the grocery store this morning an let me say it took a lot out of me just thinking about…

I went to the grocery store this morning an let me say it took a lot out of me just thinking about it, but I got my 11 month old dress an my 9 month pregnant self ready also. I was fine until I had to walk an get food for my family, well I did it put my son in the car seat mind u I was already out of breath just walking in the store an let alone walking out with a full cart with 2 babies my son in the cart an my son in my belly, I packed the car sat down blasted the ac in the car an waited 5 minutes before I drove off, then I get home park turn off the car attempt to get out I said the hell with it I'm going to sit in my car for 30 mins ac full blast my 11 month old sleeping so I was okay, then I went ahead an put the bags in the house my son in his rocker went to the kitchen started to put away some things until he started crying gave him his bottle nothing changed his pamper nothing put him back in the rocker turned on elmo world with a bottle an he stoped, I had a break down because I'm exhausted I don't want to be pregnant anymore I have a sink full of dishes that I don't have the energy to do an mind u my groceries are still in bags in the kitchen, I broke down in tears because I feel like I have no help at all, my son's father is great takes care of what he needs to financially an all!! I'm not bashing him at all he is a great person but when ur 9 months pregnant with an 11 month old an have to clean wash clothes cook an keep both of them happy it takes a lot out of you, leaves no room for u to relax an just drop everything an just sleep an not worry about baby or household chores to do, I feel that he knows this but I feel like he just does not care in a sense because he will not clean the dishes during the week let alone when the sink is empty it's like in his head is like oh the sink is clean let's pile it up again with shit so she can clean it let's use every single cup in the house an leave it in the room. I want to explode because that's how I feel, then when he does clean I hate the way he does it because it's like he half asses it, washing clothes thaxs babe but who has to put them in the dryer an put them up ME, aww thaxs babe for doing the dishes but leaves half of it still in the sink who has to finish it ME, an who has to stay up with our 11 month old when this kid wants to stay up till 5am because he does not want to go to sleep an his father is snoring away on a nice soft bed ME, but when I'm home with just my son I break down an I feel like I can not take it anymore...I need a vacation from my house.. I think I would be okay if I was not pregnant but there would be a lot more done in this house, but here's the kick if I say anything he gets mad because I'm complaining about cleaning so he tells me that he will hire a maid!!! WTF why not just help me an I won't bitch about it problem solved!!! maybe it's just me being over it an not wanting to be pregnant anymore because I can hardly breath hardly get up an do things an hardly bend down to do anything anymore, the worse part I have my baby next week on the 14th via c section an then my first born birthday is on the 7th of may -_- no rest not time at all for myself no help from any type of family because my parents don't talk to me at all an his parents I feel don't like me in their own way, so at times I feel alone, I really have no help from friends becau se e my son's godmother it just seems like she can't watch him when I do really need her. so it's like what to do, I love my son an my unborn son, I just need a break to be alone at times that I never get. sorry for the long post I just needed to get it of my chest..