I've always struggled with a low self esteem, literally I remember in 5th grade coming home crying…

I've always struggled with a low self esteem, literally I remember in 5th grade coming home crying everyday cause I felt ugly. I've been struggling with depression and my self esteem since I was really young and these days I can even get myself to leave my apartment I always make my way back in bed, I woke up with stretch marks a Couple weeks ago and I don't think I've been anywhere but the store since. I try and hide them from my fiance but he's seen them and I'm scared he won't find me attractive after I have our daughter. I know my depression is back in full swing and I just want to pull myself out of it I'm tired of crying and hiding and being miserable but Its hard to be happy when your own body disgust you .