I'm so excited and at the same time so incredibly petrified about my baby boy. I lost my first son…

I'm so excited and at the same time so incredibly petrified about my baby boy. I lost my first son February 25th, 2014 to SIDS. I found him, at 826 am, in his crib, not breathing. It took me so long to accept what happened wasn't anyone's fault. This baby wasn't planned, but is still a blessing and I'm so excited to meet him. I just can't keep myself from worrying and negative thoughts. Not to mention I still haven't gotten anything (AT ALL) for him yet. (Due in July) I have a panic attack every time I try to do actual shopping. I was able to do a little registering with the help and support of a few friends. I feel horrible that I can't do it myself. I still have to register the big items but am trying to wait for my friends schedules to permit them to join me. I'd greatly appreciate you guy's prayers and support during this time since I'm doing it alone. Also If anyone has gently used baby boy items and clothes I'd definitely be interested as well. 💗