Everyday of this pregnancy is a struggle. I have never been more sick or endured as much pain as I have now in my life. The beautiful thing is I believe that this child's purpose in life is something great. He was created from one sexual encounter with a man I loved at one point so dearly. He was not in my plans but destined to come all the same. I pray daily that I will raise him to be better than his parents. I pray daily that he has wisdom like his namesake. I pray daily that he knows love and that he will have the guidance of real men in his life. I pray daily that I not corrupt him in any way. I pray daily that I will be strong enough to raise him into a well rounded and respectable man. I pray daily that he does not feel the lack of a father or feel unworthy in any way because his dad has chosen not to be there. I pray daily that he knows despite my tears and sadness due to the situation that I love him more than life and I'm so grateful that he chose me to be his mother. I love this child more than words could ever express and I will strive to be the best parent that I can. I love you Solomon. Never ever doubt my love for you. My life is nothing without you in it. You are my world, my greatest hope, my everything.