HUSBAND RANT: keep scrolling if you don't care. i apologize its so long.

HUSBAND RANT: keep scrolling if you don't care.

i apologize its so long.

My heart is literally shattered. I dont know what to do anymore. My husband and I used to be so in love and i mean we still are but we do nothing together now, after our first child our relationship went to crap. I feel like i am the only one trying in this relationship. He doesnt come onto me anymore. He never kisses me, hugs me, wants to cuddle with me, or have sex. if i try to do any of that he pushes me away and says im getting in the way of him doing something or that i need to wait until later. yet it never happens. and yet im the only one initiating any of it. He barely helps me with our son. god forbid i ask him to change a diaper. he gets an attitude . like the other day i asked him to help me carry up some stuff because my hands were full with my son,and bags, i also had his stroller to carry and im 4 months pregnant with baby number 2. his words were "no, you can do it" he purposely stresses me out and laughs about it. then lately my husband keeps staying late at work, claims that he is waiting for the person behind him to show up, that theyre always late. but everyday? then i look at his phone and notice hes got all these girls numbers who are his coworkers. he wont let me have guys numbers or anything but his excuse is that they were willing to switch him shifts and they wanted him to text them if he wanted to switch. makes me wonder why only girls are willing to switch? and i have trouble trusting him, he hasnt cheated as far as i know but he has talked to other girls behind my back before and had half naked girls as screensavers and everything like that. i just feel worthless and gross. i have talked to him about all this so much and cried so many times to him to work on this with me but nothing changes. i give up, im starting not to care. idk what to do.