Okay.. Sorry for this long rant but I feel like I need to just vent before I go crazy. Lol.

I'm starting to get very insecure and kinda irritated. This is just one incident that happened today. So me and my boyfriend were out in town driving around and He was talking about one of his friends who used to be very big who got smaller and he said that his friend was thick but he was still "fat" ( I have been "bigger" my whole life. I have had a big butt and my legs used to be all muscle. But I lost that all when I got pregnant) Any way, he realized that he was basically calling me fat at the same time. He didn't say anything like oh you took that the wrong way. He leaned over and kissed me on the check, and then said the only one that can be fat is you. At this point I'm starting to get upset. We stopped at a restaurant to eat, the whole time we are there he is checking out girls behind me. ( I know this because I caught him various times) I don't like feeling like this at all. Like honestly I feel like I'm not pretty enough and I'm just not good enough. Ugh. This shit sucks :(