I've been doing good emotionally lately, been feeling decent about myself, my new coming baby, and…

I've been doing good emotionally lately, been feeling decent about myself, my new coming baby, and this unfair situation...but more often than not I get into these very depressing moods missing my bf and I just don't see how he could leave me, specially after he begged me for this baby...just to leave me carrying it alone 😒😩😔