Thursday I found out I lost one of my baby boys. I will never forget little Oliver. He will always have a place in my heart no mater what. I will tell his brother about him but not until he is old enough. But I will cherish James so much and am so thankful he is healthy. My fiancé has been the absolute best through all of this. I know it hurts him as well but he is doing the best he can being strong for me. I know he breaks down and that's ok. I'm not the only only one going through this. It was his son too. I know I didn't do anything to cause this but I still feel like I failed some how.
Mommy loves you so much Oliver and will never forget you baby boy. 💙🌹
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I'm a strong person so hoping I get through this. Just very fresh so it's very painful at the moment. @mrsmord
Wow that's so incredibly hard !! I'm so sorry to hear that. But as long as it's safe for the other one . Stay strong 👊🏻
Yeah as long as my blood is clotting so the toxins from Oliver then there is no need for an early delivery so I'm hoping to go full term with James so he fully develops @mrsmord it hard to think I have a deceased baby in my belly but I have to do it for James. I have to do what I have to do as a mother.
No it doesn't. I will have to carry him until James it ready and then they will take the other one and do an autopsy.
R they taking the baby out before the due date ? Or r u ganna carry it..? I know it sounds like a gruesome question I'm sorry
I have a couple of months to think about but it's so hard it makes it real. I mean it is real but it's hard enough I'm afraid it will break me.
I don't think so , it's a heart ache it'll be even worse once you hold him , but you might also regret it in the future . It might help with closure too.
No its ur choice to make it 100% about James
@mrsmord, @lil_bigmama do you guys think it awful that I don't think I want to see or hold Oliver ?
@mrsmord, if I didn't I think I would be more of a mess right now. Still breaks my heart but makes me thankful and appreciate what I do have to look forward to.
That's so sad I'm so sorry thank gd you have the other to think about ❤️
It's ok to fall apart from time to time
ur going through something none should ever have to do in there life u still have a blessing u have 2 worry about growing in u u have 2 remember that ur strong so strong
@lil_bigmama, thank you. I just don't really know how to deal with it. I breakdown quite often.
I'm sorry hun yall will b in my prayers
@mrsmord, thank you. It's very difficult but I'm doing the best I can to stay positive and take care of myself for my other growing boy. It's just hard that I have to have an autopsy done on the other one when I give birth but hopefully James can go full term now and I can take him home after.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I keep second guessing myself, I know I'm done having kids after this one. He is my second but first boy. I don't know if I should go through getting my tubes tied or not?? it just seems so invasive, unnatural and permanent! I don't know what to do??
Ok ladies so I'm 7 months pregnant and I can't see my damn vagina! I did the best I can but I think I BOTCHED it lmaooo is there any mommys to be that's going through the same thing? My hubby said he will shave it for me but only once lol 😩😂
@itsamemario, you deleted your post before I could hit send but this is my comment: I don’t know if this answers your question but this is my answer.
My son is 7 and he knows race and color. Why? Because he himself comes from a family that is multi racial and because he has already experienced racism. I also believe as his mother it’s my job to teach him color and the cold hard truth about society. He knows what’s going on in this world. I’d be hurting him if I allowed him to blindly walk out...
Until u know what another parent is going through, dont judge.cause if they didn't need the money,they wouldn't sell the food. U just never know another person situation.
Of course ! It's okay to feel pain it's a painful situation