Thursday I found out I lost one of my baby boys. I will never forget little Oliver. He will always…
Thursday I found out I lost one of my baby boys. I will never forget little Oliver. He will always have a place in my heart no mater what. I will tell his brother about him but not until he is old enough. But I will cherish James so much and am so thankful he is healthy. My fiancé has been the absolute best through all of this. I know it hurts him as well but he is doing the best he can being strong for me. I know he breaks down and that's ok. I'm not the only only one going through this. It was his son too. I know I didn't do anything to cause this but I still feel like I failed some how.
Mommy loves you so much Oliver and will never forget you baby boy. 💙🌹
Lori 🍕·
I'm so sorry for your loss 😞
Kelly Veach·
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@mrsmord, thank you. It's very difficult but I'm doing the best I can to stay positive and take care of myself for my other growing boy. It's just hard that I have to have an autopsy done on the other one when I give birth but hopefully James can go full term now and I can take him home after.
lil_bigmama·
Мама сына (3 года), беременна (32 нед.)
I'm sorry hun yall will b in my prayers
Kelly Veach·
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@lil_bigmama, I appreciate that. Thank you Hun.
lil_bigmama·
Мама сына (3 года), беременна (32 нед.)
anytime I'm here 4 u
Kelly Veach·
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@lil_bigmama, thank you. I just don't really know how to deal with it. I breakdown quite often.
lil_bigmama·
Мама сына (3 года), беременна (32 нед.)
ur going through something none should ever have to do in there life u still have a blessing u have 2 worry about growing in u u have 2 remember that ur strong so strong
lil_bigmama·
Мама сына (3 года), беременна (32 нед.)
It's ok to fall apart from time to time
Lori 🍕·
That's so sad I'm so sorry thank gd you have the other to think about ❤️
Kelly Veach·
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@mrsmord, if I didn't I think I would be more of a mess right now. Still breaks my heart but makes me thankful and appreciate what I do have to look forward to.
Kelly Veach·
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@mrsmord, @lil_bigmama do you guys think it awful that I don't think I want to see or hold Oliver ?
lil_bigmama·
Мама сына (3 года), беременна (32 нед.)
No its ur choice to make it 100% about James
Lori 🍕·
I don't think so , it's a heart ache it'll be even worse once you hold him , but you might also regret it in the future . It might help with closure too.
Kelly Veach·
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I have a couple of months to think about but it's so hard it makes it real. I mean it is real but it's hard enough I'm afraid it will break me.
Kelly Veach·
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@mrsmord, @lil_bigmama
lil_bigmama·
Мама сына (3 года), беременна (32 нед.)
Pray about it hun
Lori 🍕·
R they taking the baby out before the due date ? Or r u ganna carry it..? I know it sounds like a gruesome question I'm sorry
Kelly Veach·
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No it doesn't. I will have to carry him until James it ready and then they will take the other one and do an autopsy.
Kelly Veach·
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@mrsmord,
Lori 🍕·
Oh wow :(
Kelly Veach·
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Yeah as long as my blood is clotting so the toxins from Oliver then there is no need for an early delivery so I'm hoping to go full term with James so he fully develops @mrsmord it hard to think I have a deceased baby in my belly but I have to do it for James. I have to do what I have to do as a mother.
Lori 🍕·
Wow that's so incredibly hard !! I'm so sorry to hear that. But as long as it's safe for the other one . Stay strong 👊🏻
Kelly Veach·
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I'm a strong person so hoping I get through this. Just very fresh so it's very painful at the moment. @mrsmord
Lori 🍕·
Of course ! It's okay to feel pain it's a painful situation