I wish I could stop being expected to be strong. Everyone around me is constantly telling me that I'm so strong for doing everything I have to do . I don't wanna be strong anymore . I just wanna go back in time when my fiancé was still alive . I wanna go back and change everything so that he can be here with me right now . But instead here I am 6 months pregnant with our second little girl and raising our almost 2 year old by myself . This isn't what I wanna do but I have to do what's best for my girls .