I'm feeling sad it just hit me that I'm going to be a mother of two kids . I'm not saying it's a bad thing it's just…

I'm feeling sad it just hit me that I'm going to be a mother of two kids . I'm not saying it's a bad thing it's just it's only been me and my son for the past 10 years he's been with me through thick and thin . And it's like dam I'm having another boy soon and not only will i worry for my ten yr old I will worry for this one only cause we live in a crazy world.

But.... wow.... I can't believe it!

I wasn't at all ready for this pregnacy didn't want any more children for a while and I know this is a blessing because before this I had a miscarriage and I was like I'm done with wanting kids.

As women we have to take an except the responsibility right away when we find out we are pregnant cause our children grow inside of us. I did get pregnate before my miscarriage and decided on abortion at the time which still haunts me and will continue to for the rest of my life, that's why I couldn't do it again I promised myself I wouldn't chose abortion because of what I went through when I first did it. And I'm not going to lie the thought did cross my mind when I found out I was cause it was out of no where but I just couldn't and I'm glad I didn't I wouldn't know how I'd live with myslef.

When I first found out about this baby the ultrasound technician told me I would miscarry because the sac the baby was in was an odd shape day after day I cry waiting for my body to expelle the baby on its own.

Guess what another check up and an ultrasound was performed by another clinc said that the baby was fine nothing wrong healthy heartbeat and all and now he will be here in 3 weeks crazy how some things turn out! I thank Jesus that this pregnancy has gone good nothing wrong with baby and I ♡

and I pray it continues that way!