It breaks my heart to even write this. I was so happy about being a new mom, hoping my child will be born on my birthday. To then be admitted to an ER and be told that my baby has no heart beat and has stop growing. Now I have to go and get a procedure done tomorrow and all I can think about is how happy I was for this new chapter in my life. This birthday for me will definitely be different without thinking that my son or daughter will not be there. I haven't slept. I have never hit a depression this bad and I fear that I will only get worse once I wake up from my procedure tomorrow. I never wanted to go through this. To my unborn child, mom loves you with all her heart and I wish you were still here. You were already the best thing to happen to me and you were gone too soon.