Feeling a bit off right now. Went to OB today and I'm at a good 3cm dilated 60+ effaced and she said she is willing to induce me this Thursday or we can wait it out until she comes. I'm due the 21st so would be 3 days before my due date. I decided to do it cause I'm stressed out to the max. My SO can't handle anything right now he is a mess and very upset all the time and thinks do it, cause he can't handle anything unexpected. My kids come Friday and my mother & sister live 6 hours away and say do it so they can schedule to be here. I feel bad like I'm evicting her but everyone says she is healthy and full term. I'm probably just anxious about it never been induced before & probably good to get her out before my body has some crazy reaction or hurts her from my stress. All I can think is the sooner she is here the sooner I can get back to work and get on with things in life cause since August I've been in a rut laid off and living stressed about if my bills are going to get paid or when my car will be repossessed. This has been the longest most stressful pregnancy right in the middle of the longest and hardest year of my life. If I survive giving birth I think I'll start to believe I am strong and can do this no matter what but I'm an anxious person so that's a big IF in my book.

what am I doing and am I doing it right😟😔