I called to tell you to change my mind that what I'm doing is wrong I was hoping you'd answer an tell me to come to you but the rings went on though I held the phone for a minute the ache of hoping you'd answer felt like hours what hurts me the most was the fact that I suffer alone in this ridiculously crazy depression an anxiety an in my last hopes of having you to comfort me you weren't there what did I do so wrong for you to feel like you can't even answer or anything it's kind of funny I actually expected this I wanted to say you were different but I guess that's life .an I feel like I'm losing myself but it will be over soon