This is too hard.....

The lost of my Ellie.

Being kicked out of my exes

Being a single mom to 2 kids

No job

No car

Soon to be homeless

Nobody to help me

Mental and physical health issues

I'm just ready to end it all. The pain is too much. I'm starting to have panic attacks everyday. Especially when my kids are sleeping or more so when I'm by myself.

My twins are fighting again. Its so mean but I love it. 😘 Don't kick each other too hard in there!

Count your kicks!

Ladies... please, please, PLEASE count your kicks every day! I feel like I've read about too many losses this late in pregnancy and it breaks my heart to hear about it.

So I am 110% positive baby is kicking I've felt movements and everything and I seriously can lay my hand on my stomach and feel him kick, I had my mom put her hand there too and literally felt a kick! I'm 19 weeks and 2 days, and she thinks I'm further along cuz I should be feeling kicks like that hard yet! Y'alls think its possible that I'm further along??

Update on my journey. Long story short my baby is growing too fast per high risk doctor and is at risk for still born. I have came too far. All I can do is count kicks..