okay I've been dealing with depression like my whole life.. I've done some stupid shit because I've…

No stupid at ALL.

its gotten so bad that I hung up on my BD because he was being stupid and i wasn't answering the phone and he came over because he was afraid I was going to kill myself or something... @emkasting

It would be smart actually.

honey get some help. there's nothing wrong with wanting to take care of yourself. you have to be able to put yourself first and get what you need so that you can continue taking care of the little one. Really consider it ok if you think it's really bad.

I didn't want to resort to medication but I can barely shower, or clean, and I never leave the house or invite anyone over. and my BD is afraid IMA harm myself or baby girl... @mrsmitchell

okay thank you, I don't want people to think I'm weak. I barely eat anymore I think its time... @nikolaismommy

@jasminemaye, you're not weak. I think your a pretty strong person for realizing you need the help. many people don't. hang in there and call someone today. postpartum depression isn't a joke so if you tell someone they should help you ASAP.

I was there. I would def seek help. Having someone to talk to or just a few mins away from playing the mom role makes a huge difference.

I agree with @nikolaismommy

my doctor already kind a knows I didn't want to resort to this but I barely care enough to take care of myself.. maybe its time. thanks y'all. @mrsmitchell @tracynangel @nikolaismommy

yes, find the help you need if not for yourself, for your kids. they love you and would love too see mom healthy and happy!! keep me updated

You can't be a good mom if you're not fine! Ultimately you come first! Took me seven months to realize I've dedicated everything to being a mom that I've fallen into depression! First step is realizing it and the next step is to do something about it because it won't just get better on its own! You have a lot to transition into, it's normal to feel this way! Good luck!

you guys are right...I've been dealing with this since I was young, I tried to convince myself I was fine.. now that I'm a mom I definitely realize i cant take care of them if I'm not fine. @nikolaismommy @tracynangel

Yes!! Go seek someone to talk to! Perhaps you won't even need meds!