My emotions are at the most high right now. The anniversary of my baby passing is coming up. So much is going on within me. I so want a baby and Im getting really impatient. This ttc is really stressful and trying to stay strong and positive is even more draining. I don't want to sound like a hypocrit, I am more positive than anything when it comes to others and myself. But even the most positive person has their moments. My nephew has his girlfriend is here and she is due any day now. I can't have her here, especially with her new baby. That would just tear me apart, plus them being here is really putting a strain on me and my fiancé's relationship. We have never slept in separate blankets and when I spoke about it he says as long as my nephew is here we are gonna have issuess. I don't know what to do. Please pray for me. I really need it.