I just can't keep doing though bit if I go through something I have to "deal with it" I can't

Girl, don't even stress it. Me & my bd got into it all the time! One day we got into a big physical fight & I drove 700 miles to a different state away from him b/c I was so pissed at him. I regret it to this day that I left him like that. Now, he has to travel to see his daughter be born & now we're working on the distance relationship. Whatever you do, sweetheart, just hang in there. Your emotions will make you feel like all hell is happening but really you're just hormonal af! Lol cry about it, eat your fav food & give yourself space away from him for a couple hours then start over. Good luck honey.