Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

I need advice!! So I am currently in an unplanned pregnancy. Baby's father is very wishy washy about being involved. And I know I can't make him do something he doesn't want to do. He has not been involved in any dr appts and he may not be going to anatomy ultrasound. Should I just let him be and hope he comes around?? I don't want to beg and harass him to be in our child's life, but our child deserves 2 parents.

I’m at a 1 1/5 if I dilate anymore within the next 3 hours I am being transferred to Odessa Tx because our my hospital doesn’t have a NICU.

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I feel so bad for my bf, I lost my sex drive completely. the things I liked I am now repulsed by. I don't want to spoon or cuddle anymore. all he wants is affection and it's hard for me to give him that, and I don't know how to change this because I used to be the affectionate one not him. 😦